I wanted to be loved so bad when I was a teenager but I couldn't find love. I always stayed depressed in my little room and wondering why the root of a plant you trusted will not be able to grow the good seed that can give you joy. There is always a certain period in a teenagers' life that they wanted to be loved. My heart is always occupied with sadness, and I kept asking myself what have I done wrong. I am a devoted worshipper but I knew I was missing something. After high school, I decided to have a man in my life, with the belief of getting what I was missing. He was more mature and I was looking forward to learning from him. My parents were not in support of the relationship but I was desperate for love. I was excited to move in with my man despite my parents not supporting the idea. I could still remember him teaching me how to cook and telling me how to do things. I guessed he got tired of babysitting a wife at some point. It was only three months of our togetherness and the table turned around. The love field then turned to a battle one. A wife started getting treated like a girl. It wasn't a good experience. There was a day he went to work and I thought of him returning back home then I was worried and restless. I was so scared that my so-called husband will be home in a few minutes, then I started cleaning the house, dusting everywhere. I was just confused because I didn't know what he would complain about. He came in from work, I greeted him and offered him food. Unfortunately for me, he said I didn't do a good job putting his clothes away, then the situation went bad. I could not return to my parents and I couldn't narrate my terrible experience to them. I kept mute and enduring. The abuse was getting too much and unbearable but I decided to stay because I thought opting out at that point in time will only worsen my situation. Life seemed like hell to me. A wife turned to a slave, the heart that supposed to be occupied with love was full of fear. I later got out but it was too late. It was also unfortunate that I was still desperately seeking for love even after I left him and I kept getting into wrong relationships. Life can throw you around sometimes, but is always good to explore and study the part life throws at you because it will be useful for the rest of the journey.
That is a true life story of a lady seeking for love. This is my take on this situation; Parents are supposed to show their children how to be loved because if they don't, the children will get it somewhere else which may be disastrous. Generally, it is a good idea to calmly seek for love because if you feel like shopping
desperately, you will surely buy what you do not need which can build up to be a monster in your life. Individual desperately seeking for love never think straight, their judgment has already been altered because they think people don't love them so they take an act like kindness for love. This is the trick, your brain and mind make you miss what you do not have. It is simple mathematics if you keep telling your brain that you are lacking something then your brain will process it and interpret it that you are really missing that thing. So, try to play with your brain and mind. Don't get me wrong, you can seek for love but never get desperate because if you do, you will rush out just the same way you rushed into the relationship. Take care of yourself and invest in yourself for the right person. If you want true love, do not seek desperately. Take your time building yourself to be able to accommodate the upcoming lover. Let me rest my pen here😜. Always be Realwithkem.